Finally!

It happened! I have been waiting since May for  Ryan to come see me in a dream. I felt like it would be his way of checking in and letting me know that he was ok...well he hadn't felt the need to pop in until Monday night.  The more I think about it...I don't quite recall actually seeing him, so honestly, I don't know if I can count my dream as having him in it but I felt it.

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I was wandering through the city and I was so lost. I couldn't get to where I was going and every time I looked up I was outside of Sloan Kettering.  I would walk for "hours" and no matter which direction I went or who I asked for directions I would be outside the hospital where Ryan died. It was weird.

Like I said, I don't remember seeing Ryan, but he is the only connection I have to the hospital, so really...I don't know what else to take from the dream other than, Ryan is nearby and he's ok. Who knows? I was happy about it. I woke up feeling good about the dream despite the inner turmoil that was portrayed through being lost. Ryan has been gone 5 months and not a day goes by that I don't see a butterfly and think of him.  I feel so blessed to know that he's with me.

As Halloween approaches, Matt and I have a great couples costume coming your way! Stay tuned :)

Keep at it

I've been missing Ryan a lot this week.  I am sure it has everything to do with his and Megan's wedding anniversary approaching and the memories I have of the happiness surrounding this time in our lives liast year.  Is that weird? I feel so weird...like I'm not supposed to be missing him, or that I'm missing him too much. I dunno.

On a lighter note, Mom and Dad are visiting this weekend and we will be spending Saturday night with them, going to dinner...maybe a show. Who knows.  I want to make an effort to write more...so here's a toast to trying!

Banjo's Manifesto

A little repost from my bestie:

Summer Summer Summer Time!

We have had a busy week here by the beach! Last week Matt and I went to the Kenny Chesney concert on the beach! It was a whole lot of fun. We had a great time! We hadn't had a date night in a very long time so it was nice to get out and spend time together. Between my work schedule and Matt's we only ever have time to spend together after we both work for the entire day and our weekends are eaten up by work as well, so a little time together goes a long way!

This weekend we celebrated the Baptism of my Godson, Edward Vincent. This baby boy is the most amazing little thing in my life. He is such a good baby and I just love him so much! I wish I could see him more often, but the time I do get is incredible. He is growing so fast! Already 4 months old, giggling and eating sweet potatoes and sleeping through the night!!!!! Matt and I were able to take 2 days off to spend in Delaware with Stacy, Mike and Eddie as well as the entire Hennigan/Sinkinson crew! Saturday was spent preparing for yesterday's festivities while Sunday we spent celebrating our little Eddie!

Today has been full of thunderstorms! I didn't have to work today, so I have been able to stay home and enjoy the sound of the rain. Katie is so scared of thunder, I convinced Matt to leave her at home with me, so she wouldn't be at the office alone while it stormed...so today I have my shadow with me. She hasn't left my side!

More than just a memory

Yesterday, while cleaning up the memory card in my camera, I came across some pictures of Ryan. These pictures were from the last 2 summers  when we were all at Stacy and Mike's for 4th of July.  The times we spent together at the beach are some of my favorites.  The 6 of us didn't have the chance to all be together all that often but when we did, we had a blast!  On one occasion, Stacy Megan and I went to see Eclipse. We left the boys standing in the kitchen drinking beer and when we returned after the movie, they were still there, drinking beer in the kitchen!  We (the culd-a-sac) made memories that I am so grateful to have. I think about Ryan often, and I miss him. But I can't help but feel lucky to have the memories to help me through.

Spending the 4th on the Culd-a-Sac

I have another post about our weekend in DE. But I don't have the pictures ready yet, so stay tuned.

XOXO

Love you Big

If you would, please take a moment to think of my friends Ryan and Megan. Ryan passed away from Melanoma on Saturday, May, 19. He was 33 years old.  If you would, please keep both Ryan and his wife, my best friend Megan in your prayers.  Ryan was a really great guy. A good friend have. I miss him terribly.  Love you bud, may angels lead you in.
                                                   

Ryan Michael Diehl

March 25, 1979-May 19, 2012

Wow! I am terrible at this!

So sorry that I allowed months to go by without a post! We've been busy!  February brought us Matt's 26th birthday as well as the birth of my Godson Edward Vincent.  We also spent a weekend in DC for Matt's birthday! What a great time! We loved every minute of it and can't wait to go back! Our friend Ryan, while faced with some pretty serious health issues is now on the road to recovery and we are so very grateful for that!  March was quiet...extremely warm...but quiet. April is off to a wonderful start, a beautiful day and only a 3 day school week!

I'd like to take a moment to remember an old friend of mine who passed away on Saturday...Jason Nagy and I met when we were 15 and he was always a ball of fire!

We won't forget you bud.

Jason Nagy

June 2, 1985 - March 31, 2012

Please keep his family and friends in your thoughts. Thank you!

xoxo

January!!!!!

Long time no posts! Sorry! I got a job!! WooHoo! I am working as a 1:1 aide at the elementary school across the street from our house! I love it! The little boy I am working with is so sweet and awesome.  Matt and I are having so much fun living together and enjoying eachother. Still no cable or internet...and I don't really mind it!  We are going away this weekend for Matt's birthday...he doesn't know where exactly we are going, so stay tuned for pictures next week! Katie is doing well, she loves going to work everyday with Matt!  We are looking forward to celebrating Matt's birthday with our families and friends in just a few weeks!

xoxo

Happy New Year!!!!

The old Cape May fire truck!

I hope everyone is starting their recovery from the holidays! The Abels have begun by de-Christmafying the house. No more decorations, no more tree...it is all down! Thank goodness, now we can have a normal house! With the move having been so close to Xmas, we have had a tree in there since we moved in...which is kind of ridiculous...so we are looking forward to getting a TV and maybe even internet and cable...who knows!

I got a job, which I start next Monday. I will be nannying for a family in Ocean City.  It's a temporary thing, I am going crazy at home and they need help until the summer or so, I guess we were made for eachother at this point in time!

Matt and I had a great Christmas.. Our tree was huge, our presents were wonderful, heartfelt gifts that will last through the year and we spent the time with family and friends. We hosted our first holiday dinner on Christmas night, saw my sister and had friends in for New Years!  2012 is off to a great start! I wish it was more wintery and less spring like...but I won't be saying that come February when it is wintery!!!!

Our tree!

Baking cookies with Aunt Kim!

The cookies we baked!

Here's to a healthy and happy 2012!!!!




xoxo